overwhelming alien abduction curiosity

For as long as I can remember I have had an intense and almost overwhelming curiosity to learn more about alien abductions and other things that the “normal public” thinks are strange, but the abduction curiosity is by far the out does the other curiosities.  I don’t ever remember being abducted or even coming in contact with an alien, but there are 2 accounts in my life where an alien space craft was within at least 500 feet flying above me.  From a lot of the research that  I have done, many abductions are for either the purpose to help the specific individual (eg. telling of one’s mission, or operating to prevent future problems, such as health or otherwise), or for research.  I think they are as curious about us as we are of them but they have the means of finding out more, unlike us.  I also have read different things saying that they are in the same mission to find “Yahweh”, which is very interesting to me; even another life form acknowledges that there is a God, and what’s even weirder is it is the same God as our own.  There is only one account that I have heard where the abduction was negative, but it was due to the person being very uncooperative over a long period of time.  If you would like to share anything with me, it is all very welcome and appreciated.  If what is written is not to be shared with anyone else please include this in your response.  Thank you all for your time and help on this quest to know more on this topic.