I am finding that now trying to write this I am having trouble gathering my thoughts. So, if my post seems hard to follow please forgive me. My entire life I’ve felt as if I didn’t belong here or anywhere for that matter. I’ve always felt all alone in a world full of people that aren’t like me. At age 7 our entire neighborhood witnessed a very large UFO hovering for hours over our house. We all stood outside and watched it for what seemed like only a few minutes, but someone that had an older VHS video recorder went threw an entire VHS tape while standing there, then when he tried to watch the tape there was nothing on it. After that night I seemed to be the only one that really remembered ever seeing it. I can talk about it with my parents but it’s almost like they don’t remember seeing anything or they are unimpressed by what we saw. I continued feeling alienated from everyone up threw my teen years, and recently my mother told me I used to tell her all the time that I don’t belong here on Earth that I was different some how. Age age 19 I joined the Army and while in Basic training at Fort Leanardwood, Missouri I saw the same lights hovering in the sky that I saw when I was 7yo. I tried to take pictures of these lights with a disposable camera I wasn’t supposed to have and when I finally got the pictures after returning home the lights were again not there. I attributed this to the fact that I was using a disposable camera and thought nothing of it. But, as before I seemed to be the only one that really remembered seeing the lights. Others acknowledged their being there but that was about it. At age 25 while living in Phoenix, Arizona I awoke at 2:30am one morning completely naked, cold and sprawled out on my living room floor and no memory of getting there. When I tried to return to my bedroom I found the bedroom door locked and my wife had to let me in the room. I asked her when I got out of bed and she told me that she never remembered me getting out of bed. Again as with prior events I seemed to be the only one that thought this to be strange. A second event while living in Phoenix I got extremely drunk and passed out in my backyard. The last memory I have of that night was being doubled over on my hands and knees vomiting with someone near me trying to comfort me as best they could. When I awoke I had been undressed, cleaned and placed in my bed. All the doors to my house were secure as were the windows. And my wife had no memory of me ever returning to bed. Now I am divorced and raising my daughter alone living back in Ohio and I’ve found that in the past few months I’m becoming extremely restless, like I am waiting for something big, something huge and Earth shattering to happen. And now I am noticing that I don’t even feel like my family is my family anymore.
I’ve never considered myself to be an abducty. I never thought Aliens would ever want anything to do with me, even thought I’ve had a fascination with anything space related for as long as I can remember. I long to be among the stars, it’s where I feel like I belong. I am so unhappy living on Earth I always have been. It wasn’t until reading about how abducties lose a lot of animals to radiation sickness, every dog I’ve ever owned has died of cancer. I just had one put to sleep last week because of this, he is the 5th to die of cancer and had to be put to sleep. I also read on here that some abducties experience a lower body temperature then other people. I’ve always had a regular temperature of 96.7 degrees fahrenheit.
I’ve been so lost my whole life. I’ve felt so out of place and alone. Is it really possible that this is why? I attempted to talk about it last night with my mom and sister and they both looked at me like I was out of my mind. So, now I am feeling more alone then ever. I’ve never noticed any strange marks on my body or had any weird dreams. When I was younger, prior to age 17 I would say, I was terrified of being abducted, it used to be one of my largest fears. I’ve always healed very fast though, and almost never get sick. While having my ears examined I was told my the doctor that they could tell I had tubes in my ears when I was younger, though I’ve never had tubes in my ears. Could this possibly be a clue?