childhood expirience?

Well I stumbled across this forum on accident and while reading the stories I remembered some things from when I was little. When I was young I was deathly afraid of the dark because I would have terrible nightmares and always had the feeling something was waiting for me to fall asleep. I would have vivid nightmares about people getting murdered, like my mom whom I’m close too, and other things. I remember one dream in particular, I was laying on my back on one of those hospital gurney things being rolled down a long white brightly lit hallway. Doctor were talking about me and i looked up but couldn’t see their faces because they were wearing face masks, hair net hat things scrubs and gloves. I knew something was wrong because they were talking fast then before we reached an operating room I closed my eyes again. I woke up in my granmas house and was afraid. I was about 6 or 7 maybe but I had been having nightmares since I can remember. And upon waking from this “dream” I was scared and i don’t know why because nothing bad had really happened. Ever since I hated sleeping on my back but sometimes I find myself waking up on my back when I hadn’t fell asleep that way. I also remember waking up and feeling someone was in the room but I couldn’t move to see and i blamed sleep paralysis later. Then suddenly the nightmares stopped and i started sleeping normal and for years I was okay. Then in middle school, about 4 years ago or so, my weird sleeping patterns and occasional nightmares have resurfaced. I started waking up at 3 a.m. every night for months and i had problems sleeping and would have mightmares sometimes about someone being in my room. I have scars on my hands and legs I don’t remember getting and i wake up with random bruises a lot. I apologize for this being so long but its something I really want to share with others. I have a huge fear of needles too. Which could be because I was born 6 weeks early and was in the hospital for a bit. I also still have a fear of the dark and feel paranoid when trying to sleep. I also still wake up randomly during the night and hardly a night goes by without that. I’m just curious to see what others think. a few months ago I had a dream, it felt so real though, that someone was touching my neck. They had their hands around it like they were trying to choke me but they didn’t. Almost like they were just feeling it and all I could see were the hands, nothing else. Recently I had to go to a kidney specialist, since I was born early I have slightly small kidneys, and he ordered a blood test. Well they couldn’t get any blood from my left arm so they moved to the other. Well I started feeling funny and dizzy and sick and it gradually got worse. I suddenly and passed out and then convulsed like I was having a seizure, my mom freaked out, and for those few seconds it was like I was dreaming and i saw a figure. I feel like the figure was male but I couldn’t tell you if it was human or not. I have had 3 different occasions where I felt dizzy and nearly passed out and the only way to cure this was to sleep. That was the first and only time I have passed out ever. I am a paranoid person, not sure why, and odd things have happened. I also feel drawn to the oaranormal. I love researching these things and always have. If anyone could tell me what they think I would appreciate it. Could it be I’m just a weird paranoid person?