I remember when I was a kid I was in
the side yard and I saw this orange and red round object in the
sky. Then it was in front of me. It was huge. The next thing I
remember was it getting smaller and going in the sky. I ran in
the house. It seemed like I lost time. It was dark outside and I
can't remember anything in that time. I am trying to remember but
I can't. When I am outside at night I feel like I am being
watched. Sometimes during working or walking I have flashbacks
but I don't understand it. In the last year it has gotten real
bad when I am walking. I can picture the distance between objects
or the speed of moving objects. It's weird. I really have a need
to remember. I feel like I am weird.
-- question from Florida
First of all, you are not weird. If you read the messages
on the bulletin board and all the information at this web site,
you will find there are many abductees out there. You will soon
stop feeling weird.
Based on what you have described, you are starting the process of remembering
childhood abductions. Remembering will occur through flashbacks
which may be triggered when you are outside or walking alone, or
doing whatever you were doing at the time of the childhood
Behavioral psychology labels this a
"discriminative stimulus," or S.D. This means you
experience or see something when you are out walking, for
example, that triggers (stimulates) the discovery of a buried
memory of you doing that same thing as a kid at the time of the
The part you can't remember is known as
"missing time." It is lost time because you have no
memory of it. At least not yet.
You may find clues to what happened to you in
your dreams at night. You are starting to remember now because
you have reached a point in life where you realize it is
"OK" to question the strange incidents in your life
which you may have avoided dealing with when you were younger.
You are older now and better able to accept these childhood
abductions as a genuine part of your life.