Am I Crazy?

I feel like my world is crashing down around me,  I thought I was just plain insane but I know im not.

It all started when i was a child, i have these markings on my right shin they have been there for as long as I remember, 2 of my children also have these same scars but i never recall them having accidents to get them, my mother also has the same scars.I have also lost a baby, in Feb of 2000 I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl I was awake for the C-section and when the doctors cut me open they were looking for a second baby, everything was there that should have been for the twin but the baby was gone, no trace left behind. I knew i was having twins, there was no medical explaination for it, they simply said the practioner who done the ultrasound must have been wrong.

Ive always, as far back as a little girl been a precog dreamer,seen future event years ahead,I can control my dreams im them i can make things appear to suit my needs, im an Empath and have been able to do things that scare myself and others who have witnessed it, when i say “do things” i mean throwing a 3 seater sofa across a room in a fit of anger with only the touch of my hand, and it wasnt only the sofa, ive slammed doors shut and moved other things with just a touch, it hasnt happened alot because I dont allow myself to get to the brink of pure rage, well atleast i try to remain pacified.

The reason I have popped up now out of nowhere was because of a calling, i felt urged and very drawn to start looking up people who have had similar experiences to my own. Last night I was talking to my partner, who may  I add has the same leg scars as me also, he bought up a time when we apparently lived in a van park for 2 weeks while we waited for our home to be ready, I have completely lost 2 whole weeks of memory, I remember everything before and after but not those 2 weeks, they are completely erased from memory. I have quite a lot of memory blocks or erasures, especially from when I was a child.

Every couple of years for a month or more my sleep pattern changes and I sleep to the point where not even a cyclone could wake me, yes I slept through a rather bad one, when I get like this i am never refreshed, I get up in the morning and my whole body aches and i am so tired and withdrawn, so groggy, and its started again.

I have seen future events, an earthquake on the eastern seaboard of Australia, a volcanic erruption on a scale the likes we have never seen, I had the information implanted in 2001 and i registered that dream, a serial killer, a bad tornado season for the US worse than ever before, mass flooding, EMPs and a large solar flare coming from the sun this year. I have talked to the dead in my sleep, I feel them around me everywhere and sometimes I hear them as clear as any conversation.

What drew me here today was the search i conducted on alien abductions, you see last night it happened again except this time I remember it vividly, i havent forgotten the most important parts of it, and I dont know who or what gave me my abilities but i assure you if i didnt have them i dont know what would have happened because this was different, i wasnt supposed to remember and these aliens, or shall I say one alien in particular knew me very well, what I remember most about him is that he was reptilian under a human skin, he was hunting me, others were too, but he was so close on my tail,  somehow i managed to get away and he came after me, i was in a field with nowhere to go so i just concentrated hard and made a full carnival fair appear with people so i could hide behind objects and rides, he did catch up with me at the end. When he got to me he was trying to force me to take these pills but i refused and i attacked him and injured him, he wasnt expecting it, then a dragged him into a small chicken coop with me, it was then I realised I knew him and I had a strong bond with him, like we were one entity and even though I knew what he was I wanted to help him and I held him in my arms until the others arrived. They wanted me to do something I cant remember what and they were going to leave my chaser there to die because he had been compromised and had feelings for me, I refused to move unless they took him and saved him, they agreed and we were both taken, my chaser cried I screamed and that was all I remember. I seen the true form I know this was real and not some made up dream, ive had too many like it before but never have been able to remember it like this.

When I was 11, we lived on a farm in the outback, my mother gave birth to twins and i was caring for them and my brothers as she had to stay in hospital due to complications but the babies came home. I had a reptilian chasing me though the same forest area as the above dream but he caught me when I awoke i was sitting up in bed with my eyes wide open like I had the fright of my life, damn right I did and I will never forget that night.

Sometimes i am with different beings but they are kind and gentle, i barely remember them but i do remember alot of the information they give me. I wonder all the time if this is happening to my children, im unsure.

Now I am freaked, who is this reptilian that I seen, I know there is a connection and I dont fear him and he isnt horrible to me, he genuinely cares for me as I do him and I was not afraid or turned off by his true form, but the others of his kind, they do not care, they are ruthless.

Well I will sign off here, i have had this headache for 2 weeks now and unexplained bleeding from just my right ear, i dont have a tumor the doctor check it, theres nothing there that any man made machine can see. I just wonder what tonight will bring. Wish me luck and I will try to remember everything that happens.